Good point about spread discipline, I also think that you don't discipline yourself in one particular area. Agree with the statement: just do the damn thing. This is in fact my major problem I think. I like to know, learn, this endless seeking for a magic twist in my consciousness that will suddenly motivate me to act. Sometimes it happens, but mostly don't. I just like to think, observe, philosophize and do nothing. I sometimes even think that knowledge is not a motivator at all, and In fact, in some cases, it is a motivation preventer. Knowledge sometimes prevents you from doing wrong thing, and never is a source of motivation. I found that meditation, in its common understanding, proves this point. This so called "meta-awareness", when you observe what thoughts come to you mind, but don't react to them immediately. Don't execute them, don't act. During meditation, you just observe or perceive that your leg is itching, your face feels warm, etc. Same technique is suggested to observe your everyday feelings (like anger, joy, sadness, etc) and stimuli before you respond to them. In short, understanding is rarely a motivation. When you know how a thing works, the thing loses all its mystery, excitement, passion. There is no dopamine burst that would normally happen when you discover the unexpected after an action that was driven by unknown, by a stab in the dark, a high bet. I even think that drive to uncover the unknown, the RISK to fail, is what lays in the essence of gambling addiction. Which is in other words ignorance. Ignorance should be the virtue for an executioner.
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Good point about spread discipline, I also think that you don't discipline yourself in one particular area. Agree with the statement: just do the damn thing. This is in fact my major problem I think. I like to know, learn, this endless seeking for a magic twist in my consciousness that will suddenly motivate me to act. Sometimes it happens, but mostly don't. I just like to think, observe, philosophize and do nothing. I sometimes even think that knowledge is not a motivator at all, and In fact, in some cases, it is a motivation preventer. Knowledge sometimes prevents you from doing wrong thing, and never is a source of motivation. I found that meditation, in its common understanding, proves this point. This so called "meta-awareness", when you observe what thoughts come to you mind, but don't react to them immediately. Don't execute them, don't act. During meditation, you just observe or perceive that your leg is itching, your face feels warm, etc. Same technique is suggested to observe your everyday feelings (like anger, joy, sadness, etc) and stimuli before you respond to them. In short, understanding is rarely a motivation. When you know how a thing works, the thing loses all its mystery, excitement, passion. There is no dopamine burst that would normally happen when you discover the unexpected after an action that was driven by unknown, by a stab in the dark, a high bet. I even think that drive to uncover the unknown, the RISK to fail, is what lays in the essence of gambling addiction. Which is in other words ignorance. Ignorance should be the virtue for an executioner.