One of the most uncomfortable and even awful feelings for the modern human being is also one of the most important ones for you to experience regularly.
Nothing.
Doing nothing. Watching nothing. Reading nothing. Listening to nothing. Consuming nothing.
No stimulation. No distraction. No escapism.
That awful feeling of just wanting to receive some sort of audiovisual stimulus and distract yourself because you've been incapable of tolerating silence and stillness.
Think about it for a moment. Think about the extent of our disconnect from the nature of existence when we are not able to tolerate silence and stillness.
If you are able to sit with that awful feeling for a while, not only will you gradually regain your ability to focus and skyrocket your productivity, but you will, most importantly, learn more about yourself than you could've learned in years of this constantly stimulated life.
The feeling of "I hate this silence and stilness" will turn into "I hate spending time on my own."
The feeling of "I hate spending time on my own" will turn into "I don't like myself as I am right now."
The feeling of "I don't like myself as I am right now" will turn into "I feel like I am betraying the person I'm supposed to be."
The feeling of "I feel like I am betraying the person I'm supposed to be" will turn into "I am making insufficient or zero effort to move toward my goals" or "I have been impatient and passively aggressive in communication with my loved ones" or "I have been acting fake just to fit in with that group of people."
After this, you cannot retreat back into being out of touch with yourself and sleepwalking through life. You cannot help but be aware of those moments when you are going against yourself. And if you refuse to make any changes, your psyche or soul punishes you with mental and spiritual distress.
Allow this awful feeling of nothing to enter your life once in a while so that you don't feel awful when you are forced to face yourself.
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I would suggest that instead of a daily video, it would be a weekly video. That would help me with my consumption issues.
I love this article. My addiction isn't drugs or alcohol. My addiction is "self help, or self improvement" content. I need to target specific people I want to listen to and limit the time I spend on consuming articles, videos, podcasts, social media. It's becoming too much!